Sick

I feel so sick to my stomach today =(! I got a lot on my mind and I think that's what's making feel ill. When I say I got a lot on my mind I mean a whole lot. Some things I don't need to be concerned about and some things I need to have complete faith in. It's like I know what I need to do but the thought of jumping into the unknown is scary and it's making me sick to my stomach. The only word that comes to me is God, which makes sense as he is the only one that can see me through this. The thought of knowing I can turn to Him and trust Him with my life gives me peace and comfort.

Faith Faith Faith Faith we all gotta have Faith. I must have faith today and give all my worries to Him, all my heartaches, stomachaches, and negativity to Him and Him alone. His promise will stand true today as it has always been, Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." and Hebrews 13:5 "Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, "Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you." It's a battlefield of the mind and it's hard but SO WORTH IT!!

Fight the enemy off by all means and live the life you know you deserve today!!

Regrets

So I've been in school for quite some time. I slacked off big time after high school due to too much partying and laziness. Now I'm here at 25 years of age with a research paper due in a week and lots of classes in the years to come. I don't regret the partying I did, sure I wish my path then would have been different but it wasn't it and there is great reason for it, to tell you the truth I honestly don't regret it any of it. I meet lots of positive people in my past life and learned lots of valuable lessons that no one can teach you, lessons we have to learn from experience. I am in the perfect place in my life right now, I'm still in school but its OK. I do not have to prove to anyone that I can finish or that I can get good grades etc. I simply go to school to learn, grow, and experience. No matter what age you are or how long you have procrastinated go do what you have longed to do. It's your path and now is the time to get up and walk straight along the road less travel. Don't ever regret anything that has happened in your life, it happened for a reason, we all just gotta LEARN from what we experience and choose our paths and decisions wisely. Just because I say I do not regret my past does not mean I would recommend some of the things that I have done or said to anyone so they do can too "learn" the same lessons I learned. We all have our own paths and it's up to us to discover them.

Don't regret your past and give positive advise to those who ask and lead by example to those who don't ask.

I guess if I had to choose between happiness and money it would be happieness! The irony of it all is that I am a responsible person and need to pay my bills. I am stuck right now but I will dig myself a hole and get out because I see a bright light at the end of the tunnel =). Giving up is not an option and neither is settleing for unhappiness. I feel it in my heart that nothing but goodness in my future with financial stablity and happiness. I have faith in God and I know he is by my side, protecting me, loving me, and encourging me to fallow him cause only then will I be able to fully see my dreams come ture in its entireity.

I CAN NOT WAIT TO FULLY EXPRESS MYSELF AND CREATE

Movies

I love movies! The art of producing them to is very magical. Its like I am at two places at once. One can get so captivated by the emotion and scenary of the movie that you do nothing but fall in love with the characters and at times compare their lives to yours, which can be so positive. I have been with Netflix for about 2 years now and I absolutly adore it! Its was a complete dream when I sgined up! Not only can I rent up to 3 movies and a cheap price but I can also preview movies online and also watch them on my wonderful Dell laptop. I have to admit, some moives are very fake and not real at all. They jump too far over the line of turth and lose my interest quickly. I guess what I want to say is THANK YOU. Thank you to everyone involved in film making, when I say everyone I mean everyone =)